All we were doing was trying to lift his spirits.
The past two weeks had been difficult—new town, new school, new everything. Since the move, he hadn’t spoken much. So I thought, “Why not?” as we passed the community block party and noticed the motorcycle line and flashing lights. Perhaps something would bring a smile to his face at last.
Officer Bellamy was kind, understanding, and the type of person you want your child to meet when they move to a new neighborhood. I saw my son smile when he helped lift Jordan onto the bike. For the first time in days.
They talked a little, or at least the cop did. Jordan mostly looked at the handlebars or nodded.
Jordan’s voice was barely audible above a whisper as he abruptly leaned in close to Officer Bellamy. The officer’s expression changed, but I was unable to understand what was being said. A shadow passed across his features as his face changed from being open and friendly to being much more guarded. He stepped back from the motorcycle after blinking once and then twice. For such a brief exchange, the moment felt heavier than it should have.
“What did you say, Jordan?” As I approached the bike and asked, my voice was worried.
Officer Bellamy smiled tightly at me but took a moment to answer. For a brief moment, he spoke softly to Jordan while bending down to his level. He said in a soft voice, “Everything okay, buddy?”
Jordan nodded, but his eyes had an odd expression on them that I had never noticed before. I experienced a surge of uneasiness. My son had always been candid and quick to express his emotions. However, he had been suppressing everything lately. I wasn’t sure if it was something more serious or just the stress of the move.
The cop stood up straight and faced me. I couldn’t get rid of the feeling that something wasn’t right, and his smile now seemed forced.
Officer Bellamy looked at Jordan and then at me, saying, “He’s a good kid.” “This is a good one for you.”
I said, “Thank you,” but the words didn’t feel natural. My heart skipped a beat because of something in his tone, something that was not explicitly stated. What had Jordan said that caused him to act in that way?
We said our goodbyes, and Jordan appeared to retreat into himself once more as we left, his previous smile gone. On the way home, I made an effort to talk to him, asking if he enjoyed meeting the officer or if he enjoyed riding the motorcycles. Jordan didn’t say anything, though, and his expression made me feel even more uneasy than before.
I couldn’t get rid of the feeling that something wasn’t right that night after he had gone to bed. I kept thinking about Officer Bellamy’s reaction at the motorcycle. It was illogical. After a brief conversation with my son, he had no justification for acting so aloof.
I told myself I was being paranoid and tried to ignore it. Jordan had endured a lot during the move, so perhaps I was overanalyzing the situation. However, my phone buzzed at around midnight. I didn’t recognize the number that sent me the text.
“Give me a call when you can. Jordan is at issue.
I went cold. My heart skipped a beat. I tapped the number and called back without thinking.
Even though the voice on the other end was serene, I was instantly alerted by its edge.
He introduced himself as “Officer Bellamy.” “I apologize for calling you at such a late hour, but I believe we should speak.”
I felt sick to my stomach. “What’s happening? Is Jordan doing well?
Physically, he is doing well. However, I must clarify something for you.
Before he continued, there was a lengthy silence on the other end of the line.
“He said something to me earlier today while he was riding the motorcycle. Something that surprised me in some unexpected way. He sounded uncertain, as if he wasn’t sure how to continue.
I tightened my hold on the phone as my hands began to shake. “What did he say?”
“He inquired—” I could hear the hesitation in his voice as he paused once more. He asked me if I had any idea what it was like to live in constant fear. to never feel secure.
I couldn’t speak. Fear. Secure? There had never been any indication of fear in Jordan. Up until the move, he had always been a contented and self-assured child.
“You heard him say that?” I was able to whisper at last. Why would he say that, though? He doesn’t feel scared.
“That’s exactly it, ma’am,” said Officer Bellamy quietly. “I don’t believe he intended it to be a casual remark. His tone gave me the impression that he wasn’t merely discussing the common anxieties that children have. Something deeper was present.
His words weighed me down like a bunch of bricks. I was aware of Jordan’s difficulties with the transfer, but was it really this bad? Was he truly constantly terrified?
With haste, Officer Bellamy added, “I apologize for alarming you.” However, I felt it was crucial that you were aware. Perhaps he has been coping with something you are unaware of. I didn’t want to assume anything, but I felt you should know.
With my thoughts racing, I thanked him and hung up. What had happened to Jordan? Furthermore, why had he never spoken to me?
I sat down with Jordan the following day, my heart heavy with worry. I asked him about his day, about school, and about anything that might have been bothering him in an attempt to be gentle. He was silent at first, just as he had been for weeks. However, he gradually began to open up.
With sad eyes, he muttered, “I don’t like it here.” “I long for my former pals.” My room is missed. I miss every single thing.
I nodded while attempting to contain my tears. “I understand it’s difficult, my love. I am aware that you long for home. However, we also intend to make this new location our home. I swear.
“But it’s not just that,” Jordan added, speaking hardly louder than a whisper. This town has a certain quality. It seems… incorrect.
A beat skipped in my chest. “What are you saying? What doesn’t feel right?
He paused for a long moment before continuing. I began to see things when we first arrived. People are observing me. observing me. I feel like there’s always someone right behind me when I’m by myself outside. Even though I can hear them, nobody is around when I turn around.
My throat constricted. “You must tell me these things, Jordan. They cannot be kept indoors.
Tears rolled into his eyes. Mom, I don’t want to frighten you. However, I can’t get rid of the feeling that I’m being followed. And yesterday, while riding the motorcycle, I informed Officer Bellamy… All I wanted was for him to understand my feelings. Perhaps he would comprehend.
As I drew him into my arms, tears filled my own eyes. I felt so sorry for him. No child should experience such feelings or fear in their own home.
That afternoon, we talked for a while. I told him that as long as I was there, nothing would ever hurt him and that we would work it out. After determining the cause of this sensation, we would be all right.
That night, I conducted my own research. I learned something for which I was unprepared. We had relocated to a town with a troubled past. Over the years, there had been numerous reports of people going missing—people who had mysteriously disappeared without a trace. In the community, there were whispers and rumors, but nothing specific. However, I had a feeling that Jordan’s discomfort wasn’t solely due to the relocation. Something deeper that had been concealed in this town for years was what he had sensed.
As I put the pieces together, I saw that Jordan had felt that way for a reason. And I decided that I would do whatever it took to keep him safe. Even if it meant facing the reality of this town’s hidden past, we would receive the assistance we required.
I took Jordan to a therapist the following morning. I wanted him to have a conversation partner who could help him work through all of his emotions. Although it wasn’t easy, I eventually noticed that he was beginning to calm down. As he regained his trust, the fear gradually began to subside.
Regarding Officer Bellamy, he kept us informed on a regular basis and was always kind and supportive. He was more than just a police officer; he was a sincere individual who genuinely cared. And that was the biggest difference of all.
Through it all, I discovered that sometimes the things we believe are beyond our control—our uncertainties and fears—are the ones that help us find the answers we seek. And ultimately, what gets us through the dark is the love and support of people around us.
Remember that you’re not alone if you’ve ever gone through something similar or if you’re having trouble overcoming doubt or fear. Never be scared to ask for support, talk to someone you can trust, and get the help you need. It has the power to change everything.
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