As usual, the morning began chaotically. I was worn out from working two jobs, barely able to handle daily demands, school preparation, and bills. I realized with horror that I had neglected to leave lunch money for my son, Caleb, while I was shaping dough at the bakery. His message reached me before I could respond. When I called him, he casually mentioned that he occasionally looked in the cereal box where his father, Marcus, hid money, which made me feel guilty.
My concentration was broken by that one line. After my second shift, I hurried home and discovered it—an envelope concealed beneath the Cheerios, containing hundreds of dollars. After months of struggling to make ends meet, this money could have greatly reduced our stress. I was enraged. I had two jobs, but Marcus had a secret stash?
I didn’t say anything that night. Rather, I put him to the test by bringing up the car repairs, only to have him say that we couldn’t afford them. He lied with ease and composure. I was deceived. I spent the money—on myself—the following day, something I hadn’t done in years. Hair, nails, massage, and a spa day. Maybe it was reckless, but I needed it.
Marcus looked shocked when I got home. I told him I had located the cash. He went pale and confessed that he had kept it hidden in case he lost his job. He was careful not to “stress me out.” I reminded him that in order to keep us afloat, I was already breaking my back. It was intended that we would be partners.
Marcus said he simply didn’t know how to tell me and apologized. I informed him that trust was difficult to regain after this. He and I both realized that we had erred in thinking we had no secrets.
We agreed that we would no longer hide. At the very least, honesty was once again on the table, even though money was still tight.
I hoped so.