We were driving home from preschool on a normal afternoon. With her shoes off and a fruit snack on her leggings, Tess sat in the backseat and looked out the window.
Then she said it.
You are the bad guy, according to Mom Lizzie. She is a good mother.
My knuckles whitened as my hands gripped the steering wheel more tightly. I asked her to elaborate while maintaining a composed tone of voice.
I pulled out the nanny cam I had concealed months earlier while Tess was sleeping at home, just in case. With my heart racing, I flipped through the video.
Daniel and Lizzie were sitting on my couch there. He kissed her temple and put his hand on her arm.
Still a gut punch, but not a surprise.
I didn’t cry or scream. I printed out the screenshots I took and called a lawyer.
Daniel got the envelope two days later. With numerous excuses, he called. I blocked him after hanging up.
No conflict over custody, no drama. It was a quick divorce.
Even though it was painful, I let him go and allowed Tess to love who she loved.
At the beach one evening, Tess turned to face me.
Sometimes I miss them. However, I believe my greatest love is for you.
Tears came, not out of rage but out of need to survive.
Later, Lizzie invited me to my own daughter’s birthday celebration, which she had organized for Tess.
For Tess, I went. I questioned Lizzie when she claimed to love Tess as if she were her own.
“So why did she believe that I was the bad guy?”
She didn’t know how to respond. I didn’t require one.
Tess curled up next to me that night, holding a postcard of the beach and seashells.
“After I fell asleep, did you cry?”
“Yes, sweetheart.”
“Happy or sad?”
“Both.”
A picture of my mom, Tess, and I at the beach is currently on our mantle. blowing wind. barefoot. complete.
I remained intact. I got to my feet. My daughter was the first to rush to me.
The intricacies of love, tenacity, and the strength that comes with motherhood are all demonstrated in this tale.