I’m pregnant with my second baby, and everyone kept telling me the second time would feel different.
“You’ll be more emotional,” my mom said in that smug, mother-knows-best tone.
I rolled my eyes.
Turns out, she wasn’t completely wrong.
But the emotional hurricane didn’t come from hormones.
It came from my husband.
During this pregnancy, all I’ve wanted is to sink into the couch with greasy takeout and whatever random craving the baby throws at me that hour. Disappearing feels easier than smiling through small talk.
Ava—my best friend and self-appointed pregnancy hype woman—refused to let that happen.
“I found this adorable pottery studio,” she announced one afternoon while blending me a strawberry smoothie like she was running a wellness retreat. My swollen feet were propped on her coffee table.
“They do pottery parties. We paint, hang out, make cute nursery stuff.”
“We paint pots?” I asked, already tired.
“Maybe bowls. Maybe name plaques. Liv, come on. We’ll make something for the baby.”
I sighed. “Fine. But you’re buying whatever the baby demands afterward.”
“Deal,” she said instantly. “I already told Malcolm to stay home with Tess.”
That made me pause.
Ava has never exactly adored Malcolm. The fact that she coordinated with him meant she was determined to drag me out of my cave.
When we got to the studio, it was loud and warm and full of women laughing over half-finished ceramics and wine glasses. It was supposed to be harmless. A little escape.
We found our seats and started painting. Conversation drifted naturally to birth stories. Some women shared their own. Others told dramatic tales about sisters or cousins.
Then one woman—brunette, jittery smile, too much nervous energy—started telling a story that made my heart skip.
“We were watching a movie on the Fourth of July,” she said. “Almost midnight. He suddenly got a call and said Olivia was in labor. His sister-in-law. The whole family rushed to the hospital. He said he had to go.”
My chest tightened.
Tess was born on July 4th.
And I’m Olivia.
Ava and I locked eyes.
Coincidence, I told myself.
It had to be.
The woman kept talking.
“Six months later, I went into labor myself,” she said, her laugh brittle. “And Malcolm missed it. Said he couldn’t leave because he was babysitting his niece Tess.”
My fingers froze around the paintbrush.
Ava leaned closer. “What are the odds?” she whispered.
I swallowed.
“Your boyfriend’s name is Malcolm?”
She nodded.
I felt my hands shake as I unlocked my phone and showed her my wallpaper—Malcolm, Tess, and me, my barely-there bump just starting to show.
Her face drained of color.
“That’s… your husband?” she asked.
I nodded.
There was a long, terrible pause.
“He’s my son’s father too.”
The room didn’t spin. It didn’t explode.
It just went quiet.
The laughter around us blurred into background noise. The bright studio lights felt too harsh. The smell of paint turned sour in my throat.
Not only had my husband cheated.
He had a child with her.
“Water,” I whispered, and Ava was already out of her chair.
I barely remember getting to the bathroom. I just remember gripping the sink, staring at my reflection, and trying to breathe through the tightness in my chest.
Five weeks.
I was due in five weeks.
I didn’t have space for this kind of collapse.
That night, I confronted Malcolm.
There was no dramatic denial. No clever story. No convincing performance.
Just a tired confession.
Yes, there had been an affair.
Yes, there was a child.
Yes, he’d “been trying to handle it.”
Handle it.
As if you can quietly manage a whole human life on the side like a forgotten bill.
I asked him how he could nearly miss Tess’s birth. How he could stand beside another woman while I was home believing we were building something sacred.
He didn’t have an answer worth hearing.
By sunrise, the marriage I thought I had was gone.
Not cracked.
Gone.
Now I research divorce lawyers between bites of chocolate and prenatal vitamins. My search history swings between custody laws and “how to co-parent with integrity.”
This isn’t the family I imagined for my children.
I never pictured them growing up between two homes, navigating the complicated reality of a half-brother born from betrayal.
But I also never pictured staying with a man who could hold my hand during one pregnancy while building a secret life during another.
He nearly missed our daughter’s birth because he was somewhere else.
That isn’t a mistake.
That’s a choice.
My children didn’t ask for this. None of the kids did. And I refuse to let Malcolm’s deception become the foundation they grow up on.
It’s not the future I planned.
But it will be honest.
And from now on, that’s the only thing I’m willing to build.